Dawn and chocolate

Today (yesterday?) was good. I didn't draw, decided to take a little break. I wanted to watch a yaoi movie so I did just that, but the first was shit, so I looked for a second and it was also shit. In desperation I looked for a third one and it was quite nice! left a good feeling afterwards. Not a fucking great movie, but still entertaining to watch. It was 7 in the morning when I finished and Big Kitty had gone to bed, but I didn't feel like sleeping so-ok guess- I wacthed another movie! It was very funny, I enjoyed it.

Sleeping wasn't an option for some reason, at 8:40, so I got into my bathing suit and walked calmly to the beach, listening to soft music like elliott smith, which had me grinning like an idiot all the way. When I came to the beach, the sun was incredibly yellow and it prjected a stream of gold light into the sea. There was barely anyone there, which was nice, so I went into the water following the stream of light and floated on the cold water for almost half an hour (I almost fell asleep lol). I got out, finished my Earthsea book, which made me smile but also made me want to cry. I swam again, went back home, laughed when my dad said ''I was worried, thought I would have to go searching for your smoking corpse'' because he firmly believes I am a vampire, lol!

I went to bed. Woke up at 7 in the evening! I called my friend and we went walking in las salines, watching the beautiful sunset as I ran carefully over the dried salt with bare feet, both of us laughing as we expected one of those cliched scenes where the girl falls in the thin crack of ice.

And now here I am, enjoying the night listening to Jack Johnson's 'Sexy plexi' as I eat dark chocolate, waiting for the movie Chocolat to load. I'm going to watch another one with Big Kitty now, I hope it's good. The moon looks yellow from, just noticed. There's not a sound outside, except for the crickets and the palm trees when they're occasionally moved by the cold night breeze. I like it when it's calm like this. Makes me feel at ease.

Quiet nights without stars

I discovered that if I eat less, I feel more creative.

I came back from campo on Monday morning. Went to the beach alone, had no fun at all because my stupid parasol wouldn't stay still. Slept. And since then I've been drawing non-stop, going to sleep at 8 or 9 in the morning, waking up at almost 4 and starting all over again. Keeps me entertained, I like creating things, copying fun pictures from the wonderful game of Okami, but still. Every time I look up there's no stars. You can always see the stars there, away from all artifical cities and artificial lights, and there are some nigths where there's this huge white stream of stars, the milky way I guess, so beautiful it robs me of my breath because, for once, I'm seeing the world for real in my favorite place.

Summer passed too fast. Get up, work, sleep, pass the evening and start again. I can count the days I've been in campo with my fingers (If you count toes). I missed too many fun things. It was good that Big Kitty came to stay with me a couple weeks, it was thanks to her that I could make some very good memories of this summer, even if there are very few of those. However, everything I do here reminds me that last time I did them, I was with her, and it doesn't help much.

The other day I just couldn't draw anymore, so I went to the beach and floated on the completely still water, hearing the bells of sand that you can only hear in that beach. Then I saw that there was a perfect sunset of beautiful clouds and ran with ghibli in my ears to the salines where I knew I'd get the best view, carrying all my sketch books and running out of breath too afst for my liking. I sat down and painted a little. Not much, since the sky was getting darker and couldn't see. But it helped, some.

I don't want to start school now. One of my best friends is leaving and that leaves no one to be with me, since all my other friends like to stay with the crowds, which I understand and don't blame them for it, but still. It´s not a nice place.

I can at least look forward to the Manga salon. Going with Big Kitty, so its gonna be the fucking best. However, it still gets a bit hard. Summer is made of memories in campo and I don't have much of those now. I miss Big Kitty, and I get sad watching all the photos they took because I wasn-t there. Nevertheless, there is one photo i adore, because I took it, and it was quite a fun night. Because they-re all smiling for me there, all of us having fun and lifts my heart up when I see it. Because really, they are the best people in the world, and I wouldn-t be able to live without any of them.

NIPPON BANZAI!

I think I'm turning japanese I think I'm turning japanese I really think so para pa pa pa pa paaaa....