Quiet nights without stars

I discovered that if I eat less, I feel more creative.

I came back from campo on Monday morning. Went to the beach alone, had no fun at all because my stupid parasol wouldn't stay still. Slept. And since then I've been drawing non-stop, going to sleep at 8 or 9 in the morning, waking up at almost 4 and starting all over again. Keeps me entertained, I like creating things, copying fun pictures from the wonderful game of Okami, but still. Every time I look up there's no stars. You can always see the stars there, away from all artifical cities and artificial lights, and there are some nigths where there's this huge white stream of stars, the milky way I guess, so beautiful it robs me of my breath because, for once, I'm seeing the world for real in my favorite place.

Summer passed too fast. Get up, work, sleep, pass the evening and start again. I can count the days I've been in campo with my fingers (If you count toes). I missed too many fun things. It was good that Big Kitty came to stay with me a couple weeks, it was thanks to her that I could make some very good memories of this summer, even if there are very few of those. However, everything I do here reminds me that last time I did them, I was with her, and it doesn't help much.

The other day I just couldn't draw anymore, so I went to the beach and floated on the completely still water, hearing the bells of sand that you can only hear in that beach. Then I saw that there was a perfect sunset of beautiful clouds and ran with ghibli in my ears to the salines where I knew I'd get the best view, carrying all my sketch books and running out of breath too afst for my liking. I sat down and painted a little. Not much, since the sky was getting darker and couldn't see. But it helped, some.

I don't want to start school now. One of my best friends is leaving and that leaves no one to be with me, since all my other friends like to stay with the crowds, which I understand and don't blame them for it, but still. It´s not a nice place.

I can at least look forward to the Manga salon. Going with Big Kitty, so its gonna be the fucking best. However, it still gets a bit hard. Summer is made of memories in campo and I don't have much of those now. I miss Big Kitty, and I get sad watching all the photos they took because I wasn-t there. Nevertheless, there is one photo i adore, because I took it, and it was quite a fun night. Because they-re all smiling for me there, all of us having fun and lifts my heart up when I see it. Because really, they are the best people in the world, and I wouldn-t be able to live without any of them.