Girls

15 June.

Previous day befote the Economy test, I found myself early in the morning on the bus under cloudy skies, listening to Bon Iver and going to Murcia, to spend the day and night with Alma (Leader in Villena) and to come back to La Manga the next day. I remember feeling a bid sad for some reason, missing campo, the words of winter and wolves around me, but it soon passed as I got down from the bus and saw Alma in her bandana and characteristic grin waiting for me at the station. We waited for a while and got on our bus that would take us to Campus (we planned on spending the day at mine’s for studying).

The ride was long and fun, us chatting away, laughing, play-flirting as usual and it started to pour cats and dogs; I can’t remember when was the last time I saw it rain so hard. Alma’s eyes were shining, her body screaming for water madness. As we got off the bus and it was still Regina Spektor around us, we decided to just fuck it all and go walking (me barefoot; my shoes broke) to my house. I followed Alma smiling and singing Regina, watching her back and her smile and feeling just happy, life moments. We passed two guys holding their waist under the same umbrella and a few people in cars offered a ride for us, but we turned them down with a smile. I remember I was shivering as the drops hit me hard but I could only feel free, like I hand’t in quite a long time. It almost felt like winter days at campo, but with Alma.

As we got home we each took a shower and a while after jenny came over (selectividad!) and we ate together and she told us her usual stories and we laughed and were just cintent chatting and listenign to rain music. At 4 or so she left for another exam and me and Alma took a nap, cuddled on my bed, she giving me her familiar warmth. I really love sleeping with her.

After almost two hours we got up and I went down to visit Marilo to get notes and milk; she’s such a nice girl. I went back to Alma, made ourselves some tea and kept studying calmly qhen, suddenly, I looked up and there was this huge, incredibly beautiful and intense rainbow all over Murcia. I felt my breath catch in my throat at the beauty of it. We stopped what we were doung, I put some mushishi and regina songs and we just watched it; I remember I cried a little because it was just too much. It amazed me how I could ahre moments like that with someone who isn’t Catfish, not any of my animals. And I loved it.

As the twofold rainbow began to fade (a second one apperaed after a while) I had one of my crazy impulses and said to Alma, ‘’let’s go otuside to see it!! Come on!’’ and so we got dressed real quick and ran like I’ve never run in my life, behind the building, down the path between the plants and houses and all the way up the park-hill, right to the bench at the very top. It was a pity because the rainbow had almost disappeared, but still we just sat there looking at everything and I put on some muisc (helios, coldplay, TWDY) and we just sat there looking at it all. I remember perfectly the electric tower to my left, sorrounded in grey-purple clouds, Murcia down below in white moving clouds, thefadging rainbow, my cold skin and Alma’s warmth right beside me. I put my head over her shoulder and cried like I hadn’t in some time because everything was just beautiful. It reminded me of all the times alone in La Manga, all my walks, the salines, cala flores, the night-walks with Friday...and it was just so different because I wasn’t alone, for real. Everything in my life has changed thanks to her and Bea, to this wonderful first year of uni life and I was just so happy, like I’d never been before. Even if I had them, my family, it was just at limited times and now everything is just complete. And so I cried and held on to Alma’s hand, silently thanking her for being there, for being who she is, for being able to share these things with her.

After the 5-minute courtesy rest after the music ended we headed down, encontering a snail on the way which I took pictures of (small wishes granted) and then we went to fotocopy Marilo’s notes (I bought a coca-cola chupachups for Alma while we waited because she had said earlier that she felt like having one), gave the notes back to Marilo and headed for the bus. And the curious thing was, earlier that day I’d told Alma how I would’ve liked to see my bus-driver friend once more before leaving Murcia, and just as our bas came by, surprise! There he was. We spent the whole ride chatting with him happily and as we got off I looked at the clearing sky behind the buildings, all orange sunset and Alma commented how it was being the perfect day for me and I totally agreed with her.

When we got to her house, I can’t remember what we did immediately after but at some point we turned the lights off, lied in bed and had our first real shiver moment with a list I’d prepared. I remember it was only 5 songs (Reckoner, ?, Foals, Mono and Antony) and it was the same great feeling all voer again, just like shuver in campo. in Mono I buried myself in her and cried just like in the concert because they just touch me too deep and it felt great to be able to do something like that, to give myself away like that.

After that I put another list of shivery-songs and we just lied in bed and seriously, I have no idea how it happened (there was tension alla round us) but Jack Nimble poppes up and I just remembered Jenny saying ‘’just let go’’ and I was suddenly on top of her, kissing her neck and she was hugging me back and I cab’t even remember what I was thinking at the moments; I was moving out of desire and instinct. I remember she turning us around and a moment where we almost kissed, but she pulled back at the last second and I for some reason agreed that was for the best. But then, Girls came up. And my mind was just somewhere else, we were in Tokio, we were Lost in translation and I described the scene to her, the smell of the taxi, the city neon lights, a hotel room with glass for walls, the urban sea under us and the music filling us and just like that we were kissing and I can’t even begin to describe how it felt. The music was so loud and I had all those images in my mind and her lips were soft and loving and it was just more beautiful and perfect than anything I had dreamed of, as corny as it sounds. It was perfectly shiver, it was life, music and movies and just...{}

She cried, afterwards, feeling guilty for not having held back but I kissed her eyes and told her it was ok, I’d loved it, and I loved her so much for it, for crying for me. I think no one would have done taht after taking my first kiss.After that we just lay in bed still listening to music, lazily caressing each other and I know that, at some point, I fell asleep.

The next day we studied in the morning, stayed in bed for a while and went to eat at my house and do our test, which left us pretty much braindead. We went home to wait for dad to come pick me up, kissing in bed until it was time to go and as we were going down the elevator, I just looked at her and she grabbed my face and kissed me, which made me go all weak in the knees. I lvoe it when she does those things.

It was Wednesday when I went back to La Manga and I was due to return on Sunday evening for our bioquemistry test on Monday. Those were weird days, talking with Alma, missing her a lot. At first I only wanted to keep things casual with her so the whole situation scared me a little, because there was a lot at stake for her and I didn’t ant her to get hurt. However, I had a nice chat with Belen as she took me to Murcia on Sunday that left me feeling a lot better.

I arrived quite late, at 10 or so and Alma was waiting for me down Bea’s house. I remmeber seeing her made me stop fretting over the situation at once; I just knew I wanted to be with her. She accompanied me down to the banck (excuse to be alone with her for a while) and then we went back to Bea’s for a late night of studying. Alma went to bed pretty early and I slept in a different room, feeling quite lonely but not daring to go with her in case Bea noticed, although it was good in the end since she woke me up in the morning.

When it was time for the exam she went back home and I promsied to go with her after I finished, supposedly alone, but in the end Bea tagged along and we had a pre-celebration of her birthday. It was one of the best days so far; we lazed around in the house first, me and Alma talked and got things sorted out and when it was the evening we got dressed and went out for Haagen-Dazs and for Bea to take her curriculum to cash-converters. It was a fun walk; we took pictures, aughed and talked like always. Afterwards we went back home and had a aprty in the balcony; we put music on and danced for hours, with the people from the hospital dancing as well and people from the street looking up at us like what the fuck; it was great.

I spent the whole week with Alma; Bea went back to Villena for a couple days and one of those nights I finally, FINALLY lost my virginity, lol. It was a pity because after 4 months without it, Alma’s period came, but well, for me it was quite enjoyable, it was truly a great night. She was always so careful and sweet, I’m really so glad she’s my first.

On Thursday night, after a very failed Agricultura exam, we all went out to celebrate her b-day and I had her crazy all night because I wore what she calls ‘’THE dress’’, lol. I got spent with wine and we went back home pretty late, had very wild sex (alma was crazy with the dress) and went to sleep.

On Friday we woke up late, ate a lot of junk food and then all 3 of us went to meet Sara in Murcia with both Kyes to accompany me to the station. It was a great walk; we laughed and talked, the dogs running around us, so cute. It was a radiant summer day and the city looked beautiful. We went through El Malecón, a park in Murcia and sat in the grass with the dogs playing around us. When it was time for me to go me and Sara had a love attack and she decided to accompany me, since that night Marina was arriving. We said bye to Bea and Alma in the station after leaving the dogs at sara’s home and went to La manga, me telling sara all about Alma.

I went back to Murcia a few days before the Anatomy test, days spent with Bea and Alma and Kye in Bea's house, studying, sneaking around behind bea’s back, taking walks juts me and her at night with the dog (kisses under the open sky) and just being happy. I love being with the both of them.

The day fo the exam came and after we had finished it, Bea left for Villena and me and Alma went quickly home to tidy up and then Willy picked us up to go to Jl’s house for a pool day. We ate delicious pasta, bathed, took pictures, had fun with the dog and just enjoyed what felt truly like the first day of summer. There was one moment where me and Alma lied next to each other in hammocks and listened to music; the sun was blinding me and I felt great, it was really the start of summer.

We went back to her house that night and went to sleep, surprisily, because we were real tired. I spent from that day to the 9^th of July with ehr, just the two of us (completely alone for a few days because all of ehr flatmates were gone). They were very strange but enjoyable days; it was lazing about at home, going together to Mercadona, walking kye at night in la circular, spending most of our time in bed with music...I think I fell in love with her those days (so much for the casual). One morning I liked was the one we spent in bed and then went down to get a drink at the park nearby and there was no one in the street and we seriously considered there had been a zombie attack while we were having sex, lol.

Then there was the day of the Spain-Germany football match, which we watched at the Zig-Zag with Kye and a thousand people. It was quite fun to watch it there and afterwards we hurried home, left the dog and went to la circular to swim in the fountain with the rest of Murcia. I lost one of my shoes and we kissed between all the people and had 3 gusy chasing after us wide eyed. Fun times. I really enjoyed myself those days...I’ve never been quite so happy in my whole life. I’m really glad I’ve met her and that this has happened. Life would be totally different without her...it's great to at last be in love and be able to be with her.....

I love you {}